Procrastination - 2015

​Without you to give me purpose
Self-gratification rules my mind.
I had you to make me strive
To be what I knew I ought to be,
But now that I hide from you,
All motivation fades away.
I wanted to make you proud,
But I know that you will not
Pat my back anytime soon.
And this too goes to show;
I need to break free from you
In more than one intricate way.
You are innocent of captivating me,
But I need your virtual counterpart
That I have imaged in my brain
To loosen the strings
That make my action potentials
Dance to your tune only.