Daydreams - 2013

I have been rejected, turned down.
I made myself into such a clown.
Like an obstinate mule, I still love you.
And so I wonder: what should I do?
As I lie contemplating in my bed,
Thoughts of you chase each other in my head.
Imagined scenarios never to be,
They are the daydreams I see.
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Why? Why do I deceive myself so?
In the future I must learn to say no,
To forgive and eventually forget,
While trying hard to avoid regret.
To protect myself I’ll have to move on,
As soon as the shock and pain are gone.
I will flee this self-built prison of hope!
It may be that the lock already broke.